Big time kudos to you for publicly stating your situation. I've personally benefited from letting others know what I was going through when times were bad. Having a support group and not fighting alone is very important. This is an awesome forum and the help here doesn't stop with RGs. I surround myself with people who are fighting similar battles. It makes it a lot easier to be successful. I'm a COPD patient because of choices I made that I have to live with. You can do this if you want and are willing to get the necessary help. I wish you the best and look forward to hearing about your progress.